So, here's a follow up on the prayer request I posted a while back.
I most likely DO have gallstones. I'm having more and more attacks, ended up in the ER Sunday night because I was in excruciating pain, nothing would help. I was told to eat a completely non-fat diet, and I've done that so far (although I was STARVING yesterday) and now I feel like I may have another attack going on or trying to start. I am so miserable. This pain is almost as bad as labor, not even kidding. Except nothing good comes of it and I don't get any breaks. And after a bunch of searching online, I discovered that a LOT of people gain a lot of weight after gallbladder removal, a lot of them exercise 5 times a week, eat no fat at all, lots of fruit and veggies, and either still kept gaining or never lost a pound. To me, this would also be nightmarish. I seriously feel like it'd be the end of the world for me if I was stuck being over weight the rest of my life. I can hardly bear the idea, I keep wanting to cry every time I think about it, which is a lot. But at the same time, I feel like I'm being absolutely tortured every time this pain starts happening again. I don't have an ultrasound until Thursday, so even though I desperately don't want it removed, I very badly want them to move along quickly because this pain is not going away. I can't enjoy my baby, it's hard to even take care of him, I am absolutely miserable. Please pray for me. :(
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ReplyDeletePraying for you Erin.
ReplyDeleteSo do you really think that being miserable is God's plan for your life? Do you think He brought you to the place you are to torture you? As you delight in Him, He gives you the desires of your heart. Please don't lose hope as the hopeless around us do. You are His treasure and he has good plans for you, remember that. The world has told you how a lot of things were going to go. They said being unfaithful is OK, you'd hate Alaska or the Air Force or you'd curse your husband during child birth and children are just a bother. Chose carefully who you listen to and what you let affect your attitude. You WILL come through this and you WILL have a story to tell. Chose now at this point how the story will be told. Your husband is on your side, your family and friends are on your side and God is on your side. And when He's for you, who can be against you?
ReplyDeleteI hope you are feeling better Erin! It sounds like you do have stones. A lot of women get them after or during pregnancy I hear! (I watch 19 Kids and Counting haha!) Anyway, I'm praying for comfort and relief! Love ya!
ReplyDeleteI wholeheartedly agree with Curt. Do not fear, but look forward in hope to see how God is using all things to perfect you in Christ Jesus. Physical comfort and "perfection" are empty and do not bring hope or real happiness. The deceit of the world tempts us to make them idols in our life. But hope in your Savior, who offers the only real hope, real peace and fulness of joy only His children can have. Hold fast to Him that you may pass the test laid out before you. He is faithful to be your strength and help at every turn. I am praying for you!
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